Well, hi, everyone!
Last night, in the style and echo of an angsty, vague teenager, I posted an enigmatic status on facebook which read, “It’s all gonna be ok.” We very rarely hear the back story of such posts. There usually follows an uprising of comments and questions, “What’s going on?” “What will be ok?” “Are you ok?” “What’s up?” And so on. Well, just such one question came, from my mission president’s wife. And so I responded to her honestly in a private message and I wanted to share my response with you.
But, first of all, hi! How are you? It has been a few weeks since last I made a cyber appearance on this blog. Being home has been a whirlwind, to say the very least, and I don’t think I was even sure where to start. But several people have asked me to continue writing, and I’m glad. Because hopefully that means that everyone involved is in tune with the Spirit enough to be getting something meaningful from my ramblings. So hopefully that can continue for you, dear reader.
So, as for my statement about everything being ok, here was my response to my mission president’s wife:
I wanted to respond to your question about what is “going on.”
There is a long and a short answer:
The short is that everything is fine and nothing is wrong, it was just a general statement that everything will be ok.
Which is why the long answer isn’t that much different: Everything will always be ok because of the Savior.
I read a blog post last night written by a friend of mine that was a beautiful reminder of that. And it brought back a vivid memory of a companion exchange I had with [a dear friend on my mission] where she said the same thing at a time when I really needed to hear it. [She told me that she knew], because of Him, everything will always be ok.
I am doing quite well, I think. Everyone asks me if I am adjusting. I’m still not sure what that really means, so the answer may be no. But I am trying to maintain good habits, follow the Spirit in all things, and be a force for good. And still enjoy the things I have always enjoyed (reunited with Netflix, for instance, and books, and facebook, and daily practice on my bassoon).
So maybe I haven’t adjusted. I don’t know that I would really wish to, depending on your definition of “adjusted.” But I am happy.
I am, as it probably would not surprise you to learn, worried about a lot of things: school, career choices, life choices, etc. But the bottom line is, because of Jesus Christ, it is all going to always be ok.
So, maybe this was more of an answer than you bargained for, but there you go! It truly seems that not a day goes by that I do not think of a mission memory and either laugh or cry or both or grimace or something. But it is because of Christ, too, that I have these sweet memories and strengthened resolutions and sensibilities. And so even though I may not know what I am doing for school or where I will end up or what I want for breakfast today, I am at peace and truly know that it is going to be ok, because of Him, because it always is. Thanks for taking the time to wade through my musings with me. I love you! You are in my prayers and thoughts often.
And so, I share this with you, because the bottom line in all things really is that “It’s all gonna be ok.” There’s that old saying, “It will all be ok in the end, so if it isn’t ok, it isn’t the end.” I think that’s true. But it’s truest when you have the Savior in your life. Why is it always going to be ok? Because the Savior knows exactly how you feel, 100% of the time, and always knows the perfect way to help you.
A passage in the Book of Mormon, in Alma 7:11-12 also teaches us how Christ will always know and understand. It teaches us, in all of its comforting splendor and eternally truthful glory,
11 And he shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people.
12 And he will take upon him death, that he may loose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities.
In the most recent General Women’s Meeting session of the bi-annual General Conference of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, Sister Carole M. Stephens shared beautiful thoughts on the scope of knowing that Christ does completely understand our challenges in her talk entitled, “The Family Is of God.”
“In the premortal life, we learned that we would need a period of mortality. We “accepted [Heavenly Father’s] plan by which His children could obtain a physical body and gain earthly experience to progress toward perfection and ultimately realize [our] divine destiny as heirs of eternal life.”4
“Elder Richard G. Scott explained that “we were taught in the premortal world that our purpose in coming here is to be tested, tried, and stretched.”5 That stretching comes in as many forms as there are individuals experiencing it. I’ve never had to live through divorce, the pain and insecurity that comes from abandonment, or the responsibility associated with being a single mother. I haven’t experienced the death of a child, infertility, or same-gender attraction. I haven’t had to endure abuse, chronic illness, or addiction. These have not been my stretching opportunities.
“So right now some of you are thinking, “Well then, Sister Stephens, you just don’t understand!” And I answer that you may be right. I don’t completely understand your challenges. But through my personal tests and trials—the ones that have brought me to my knees—I have become well acquainted with the One who does understand, He who was “acquainted with grief,”6 who experienced all and understands all.”
That last part.
I love that.
“I have become well acquainted with the One who does understand…”
I can testify that Christ has experienced and does understand all. He understands me, He understands my dear, talented, inspiring, blog-writing friend, and He understands you. And He always will. So it will always be ok.
Much love and rice and beans, and it’s good to be home,
Alicia (aka Sister Hansen)